Meh.

Alright, 2nd post.

This is an achievement in itself. I really don't know what else to do anymore, but just make sure that I'm still going along the upward trend that I have now set myself up to achieve.

I have a new job. A new job that I can truly say I love. A job that allows me to do what I love - deal with people face to face, and be able to provide them with what they need, given our resources as well as their needs for the given situation.

But then again, this victory I've just been able to score is truly a bittersweet one. I remember vividly discussing with the one woman I've ever loved truly how much I really want to improve myself. Not just for myself, but for her. And it includes being able to get a job that takes me out of the rut of the call center industry. Now, this is now to say that I'm being an ungrateful son of a bitch who merely lambasts the hand that fed him for four years.

No. This is me saying that finally, my dreams are within reach. It's truly heartbreaking and ironic to note that when I was able to score a huge victory for my hopes and dreams, the one woman who I've dreamt of creating a future with is now gone.

Now, you might say that I have to move on, and meet new people.

I've got you covered right there.

I've gone out with three women already, both wonderful in their own way. Unfortunately, I truly admit that I am not the man tasked with seeing how wonderful they truly are. During the times that I was given to get to know them both, I've really tried my best to carry the conversation, but damn. Nothing. Even funnier, one them ended up being like a best friend to me. How's that for irony.

So there. Right now, I'm just making sure that I'm able to do well given where I am right now, because I really don't want to repeat the darkest of my days.

There's also the matter of just clinging on to the faith that I have in my Creator - the only absolute thing that's keeping me afloat these days.

Still, there's nothing wrong with praying, and hoping, and praying even more. Praying for things to get better. Praying for wisdom to reveal the bigger picture in this never-ending saga of life.

Here's to the thrill of it. That's what life's all about.